There is this very specific feeling I get once in a while. I've explained it the same way for years, yet I've never known anyone to say, "Yes. I have that too. I get it." The best way to describe it is when you were little, at your very first sleep overs. And you are trying to sleep, and it's REALLY late, like eleven o'clock. And you don't want to be there. But it's not like your SCARED. Or you fear anything that's tangible. It's just this feeling of, "I shouldn't be here right now." But it's not how it sounds: it's not foreboding, it's not a feeling like "something bad is going to happen." It's simply "this is wrong. I shouldn't be here." Similar to De Ja Vu. Or memories of "Labyrinth" that scared the shit out of you. It makes no sense: I get that feeling sometimes sitting in my own room. Or walking my dog around the block. Or driving to the store. "I SHOULDN'T BE HERE." The most common time I feel it, I've realized, is when I'm getting ready to go out, and I'm trying to look pretty/sexy. I get that bad, bad feeling a lot then. But it's not about the future. It's not like "I have a bad feeling about tonight..." It's just a bad feeling. I've said the same thing over and over. I think I've gotten the point across. I have it right now, and it's sad and it hurts my tummy. I'm going to go to a bar by myself. Mack Out.